so you think that it would've been a normal quiet day at work today? well, it was until something decided that they needed a 6.2 earthquake in seattle. i hope everyone there is ok. did i mention that i'm on the 5th floor of my building here in vancouver? yes, it did make it all the way here. i felt it for a good few seconds, i stood up and looked out the window and i could see the building move relative to the ground. how scary is that? so they evacuate the whole building along with a few other buildings around us and we're left standing in the parking lot for an hour. standing there doing nothing productive until they "deemed" the building safe.

now who goes and "deems" the building safe? i'd like to know that electrical technicians and/or construction workers who inspect the building from top to bottom are the ones doing the inspection. but all i saw were emergency response crews doing the announcements and (i think) the building inspections. now, what makes them qualified to deem a building safe? just wondering... the emergency response people would probably save my life if i cracked my head open and carry me outside the building.

on a serious note: i hope that all the people in seattle are ok, anna, rene, zannah you know who you guys are.

last night was our first sfc household. new people to hang around with and serve with. it's actually been a while since i've served in sfc, but since i've been tring soo hard to straighten out my affairs i suppose that it's the next logical step. so it was the first one of the year, and it lasted a good 15 minutes (but it was still a good job vic). their goal was to keep me out as late as i could be to keep me away from the computer. it worked i got home around 11pm, voted on the immunity challenge at Sblog 2 and finished my funky new blog layout. i was pretty productive last night, but the homework for my one course didn't get done. i'll be working on this tonight (hopefully).

and yes, i took the bus this morning and fell asleep....again.

so i redesigned. all came from a little doodle at work and a little blur effect on imageready and this is the result. being the insomniac that i am made it easier for me, plus i had a lot of companions that were online. so what are the things that make this design different? well, one is that the archive is a separate page (sorry to all the people who don't like that but it just made it cleaner). everything is tighter too, a lot of white space to satisfy the minimalist in me. i also put a rotating image on the page, so if you keep hitting refresh (or reload as you netscape people call it) the picture actually changes.

so does it look like some sites out there? well, i kinda borrowed a few ideas from people. one is ernie with the image rotator on the top. megnut for the centered text and the size="1" verdana font sizing and last but surely not the least, from vic. he had that bar thing idea on his about page, but he changed it. so i'm going to inherit it.

The ride to work today was great, I enjoy taking the bus to work. Besides waking up earlier it's a really great way to get to work and back home. You get some rest, maybe a little reading and you get to listen to your music without dealing with stupid drivers. So I like taking the bus, except when its raining snowing hailing, anything that isn’t sunny and warm weather I’d rather just take my car than brave the elements.

Plus I've been awake since 3 am this morning. I was supposed to be doing homework but I was actually up waiting for a phone call, page or email from someone.

so insomnia has officially set in for me. it's 3:00am and i'm blogging because i just woke up from a nice 6 hour nap and i'm not about to fall asleep anytime soon. so i'm staring at this computer and trying to import my contact list into this new IM that i'm trying to get used to.

happy birthday paulo

isn't that like superstition? if you bite your tongue and attribute it to someone thinking about you. couldn't that cause like world destruction? or at least global suffering. i mean there are soo many people who are more sadistic than i am. if i had an enemy that i knew would inflict pain on himself based on the fact that i had a passing thought about them would be sweet revenge. i would "think" about them everyday, every single minute at least until they bit their cheek or tongue off.

filipino superstitions are interesting.

so can i even begin to explain the benefits of instant messanger? it's a great tool to have lying around to communicate with people. the only disadvantage right now is that there are soo many instant messanger networks lying around. there's icq, aol, msn, kiwibox (bantu) and yahoo. each of these networks have their own advantage and disadvantage, for example bantu is web-based and ties into the icq, msn and yahoo networks. icq was one of the pioneers, and aol seems to have everyone on their network. and like operating systems there's a religous war going on with these im's (instant messangers).

for me, i don't like the idea that aol has a million windows open (and i have dual monitors). icq has the annoying uh-oh sound when a new message and it's soo hard to remove from your system. msn is alright if you don't like talking to a lot of people. there just doesn't seem to be any users on msn. but i finally found a small hope. <link src="zannah"> this instant messanger integrates with all the major networks (msn, aol, icq and yahoo). installs a client on your system whatever it might be (linux, windows even beos). the only downfall is that it doesn't work through the http proxy (which basically means that i can't use this at work). imici hopefully clues into that. (we want to im during work!)

i just realized that i'm leaving next week for sxsw! i can't wait, i'm very excited. can't you tell? i get to meet soo many cool people and see a few friends that i've been talking to online. the conference will be interesting too, hopefully i'll be able to take home a lot of things that i can use in my little projects here.

today is my mom's b-day

happy birthday mom

i had a great weekend, i've been on this diet to lose a little a lot of weight. we went out and was supposed to go clubbing last night but because of the music and the long line up, we decided to just stay at someone's house and watch "bring it on". today, i'm going to be working on my little side projects. (if i have a little time, maybe sneak in some redesigns)

i also watched some vcd's yesterday. really nice to spend some time at home just relaxing, completely forgetting about what you have to do and just not work on things. today is the complete opposite though.

day off! yea! i haven't had a day off since last year. I just woke up, talk about sleeping in eh (yea i'm canadian)?

yes folks, i just rifled through my email and i got this forward. after reading it naturally, i got to the end and it said the usual "someone is thinking of you, send this to everyone of your contacts or you will die!" message. i started to think if someone is really thinking about me at that moment. i don't usually believe in superstition but somehow it was hard to dismiss that if i could be thinking of someone they could be thinking of me, yea?

so guess what happened to my car? yes my car, which was finally working and insured. i was driving home from work expecting to spend a nice quiet day wallowing in my sorrows and confusion. driving driving driving, through my normal route. when my car's engine decided to just cut off. i didn't even notice that it cut off because my stereo was on, and it bumps. it's not a good feeling when your car starts to slow down and you don't know whats going on. i shifted (more like moved the lever) to neutral and tried starting the car again but it wouldn't start. Stupid me, even started to move it to reverse hoping that the car would start or something like that, but no avail. With the momentum left, i put on my hazards and steered the car to the side of the exit. Called a tow truck, waited and chilled at home.

Yes people, my car hasn't been that reliable but it's my baby!

So what am I going to do later? This is what Paulo asked me this afternoon. I couldn't answer him, I was just planning on going back to the place and just sitting there staring into nothingness. Maybe listen to some tunes, smoke a few cigarettes just stay there. Somewhere that gives me time to think. That would be nice.

i've actually had time to retool my protected journal. i spent a lot of time deleteing and editing entries (well, deleting more like it). i've decided that a new start would be the best thing at least for this journal. There were soo many hurt memories that i recorded on it, I didn't want to remember a lot of them. The other things, I have a different way of looking at them. I'm sure it's for the better that I retool and rethink a lot of the things that have been happening in my life.

i've been noticing that people have been experiencing a lot of troubles lately. either dealing with other people in their lives or facing personal challenges. Don't worry guys, its hard I know. We'll get through it, in the end it'll work out for the better. Don't ask me how I know, I just do.

So whatever happened to the philippine web awards nominee thing? Well, I didn't even make it to the finalists. Although Jerwin did and he has a great site. But the actual winner was this girl named Inday. I've been visiting her site for a while now. At least I know why she won, her site is soo amazing. layout wise and content wise. It makes me homesick tell you the truth, especially reading about her and her friends who wander around.

amazing, this guy just doesn't give up.

i'm soo confused and torn. i need some help dealing with a few issues. vic, remember how we talked about 2-fold, 3-fold? i guess its time for me to face the first wave. thanks ced for listening, i'll remember what we talked about. it really made a lot of sense.

call it a decision that i have to make for myself. many times in my life i've been faced with crossroads, when a choice has to be made. i've made many many many wrong choices, and it's starting to seem like they've all been wrong. it's a blow on my confidence. i don't trust myself to make this decision, although i know what i want. i feel like i'm going against things that i've come to know as true. i need my friends to be supportive, more so now than ever.

so do you honestly think that you can change a way of thinking? like how you look at yourself? how you see yourself in the mirror? if you're not happy are you allowed to change it or even able to? i'm sure you can, if there's a will theres a way right? i hope so, i don't want to think that my being is engraved in my dna. i'd like to think that as of right now, i can still change the way i've been looking at things. why? why would someone want to change?

i'm not quite sure but i'm sure that i need to change.

isn't it great having a productive weekend? it is! i guess i didn't even have time to blog.

friday, hung out with an old friend went out for coffee. later on that night i ended up stuffing my face with all you can eat sushi. felt sick, drove my friends home got my butt to sleep.

saturday, could probably be the most active day of my weekend. took out some friends from portland and set up for the dance. its a hobby of mine, it was fun. the arnon/ritchie dj'ing team was reunited. it was fun but harder than i thought. a wider audience means that you need to have a greater diversity in your music. it was also the day where my sanity almost broke down. it came this close to tearing me up. i remember saying how one day could throw away months of work to regain your sanity.

sunday, another tiring day emotionally and physically. i talked to a friend, particularly about relationships. how we were both miserable in general. met and realized my angel. took the portland people around the mall. ate more eat all you can. slept came home, talked to another friend about life.

damn it, i'm sleepy. i think i didn't get enough sleep last night. after the n'th cup of coffee at bread garden, i didn't sleep until 3:00 am. a little bit of sleeping in and i woke up at 7, which means that i needed to head down to work by 8. 45 minute drive which means 15 minues to get ready. everything was soo fast, but i was still asleep in my head. walking zombie might be the term for it.

I took the last parking spot at the end, either means that i don't have to pay for my parking but i spend 15 minutes walking to the office or i pay for parking and i get in nice and warm. being the cheapo that i am, decided park far and free. i get into the office, do my work go to my meetings. i'm slowly draining my energy, plus after eating a philly cheese steak and mcdonalds i'm very sleepy.

need coffee, i was going to go for a little pick me up smoke but i left my smokes in ther car. it'll take me a good half an hour just to get them, smoke and go back.

alright, thats the last time i'm wearing both headphones here at work. some dude just squawked his walkie talkie, and he was staring at me for a good 2 minutes before he left. it was one of those, i'm carrying a gun and i'm about to chase you around the room stares. old scary guy made me want to hide underneath my desk. thats really wierd, i think he's doing work on the cubicle behind me. that was just wierd, it looked like he was staring at me cause i did something wrong.

people here also decided that i'm their resident personal helpdesk. why do they keep pestering me with questions about stupid computer things? also people sending me file moves every 2 seconds is not cool! when do i get to finish my work?

when will i be able to go out and pay me icbc bills?

my car, my poor car. its soo dirty! i haven't cleaned it since we left for edmonton last year. it needs some repair on it too. i think i'll be cleaning it up this weekend though since its actually going to go somewhere other than work. plus the fact that i need somewhere clean to transport my computer. its really quite dirty, i think it can start winning awards on how dirty it is.

well, its not like i have to clean it. i'm the only one that rides in it now. no one to impress. as long it runs and dirt doesn't seep into the gas tank then i'm happy.

bitter? yea i think i am.

ok well I guess I might be playing it down a bit. I've been getting the happy valentines from a lot of people. The "I don't care that Ritchie is whining again but I'm gonna greet him happy valentines" page is cool too. Makes me feel wanted. I've been productive at work too. It's amazing what you can do when you just totally block everything out of your mind and just focus. Didn't work that well though cause here I am blogging.

Last night I was actually working on John's video for a good few hours. It's just wierd cause sometimes you get the odd phone call from that one person that never calls, and you just know that they need something (and no john i'm not referring to you even though you usually call me with these details). Its when your not sure what they're intentions are, then boom! they tell you they need you for a favor.

So to forget the holiday blues, I'm bombarding myself with work today. No time to speak or talk valentines. I'm doing 5 different things at the same time. Yes, I'm a coding homework and editing machine today. I will finish all the project plans that I have on my plate, that admin interface will be finished too. All while listening to backstreet boys and barenaked ladies. I'm amazing ain't I? (don't answer that)

so why is it that it doesn't even feel like valentines? i'm actually an avid hater of valentines day (since i've become single and bitter). i was actually thinking of posting stories in my journal about my romantic dates but i'm bitter (can you guess that i'm bitter?).

I've got meetings all morning. Plus, this afternoon I will be on a coding bender to get something done.

Tonight, I have my homework and a video to finish (thanks john, japanese food will be sweet after rushing on your valentines present). Did I mention that it takes me 3 days to finish my laundry, I started this Sunday and I will finish tonight. I just forget about the clothes when they're in the dryer then I end up leaving them for the next day.

Yesterday, I forgot my palm III and my cellphone at home. Today, I didn't forget the Palm or the cellphone, but I forgot my watch. I'm turning into mr. forgetful here. I think I need to buy those memory pills or something.

So archie was over last night, i neglected to mention that. He was over playing DDR with me. Dude, said he lost 3 pounds playing it. I'm not surprised though because I tried to keep up to paranoia (and of course I couldn't because that was the first time that i've played it in my whole life). I'm pretty sore, I will get the hang of it eventually though. At least, I hope to not look like some sumo wrestler doing aerobics while i'm doing it.

mark my words, I will get better in DDR!

It's already the last hour? Man, today went by very quickly. I'm a bit tired. I don't think its such a good idea to eat full meals, i get that nice sleepy feeling and combined with the whole ddr thing soreness, i can bearly keep my eyes open. Tonight I will do my new routine, and finish a few things. I don't think I'll be getting much sleep tonight.

valentine is almost upon us. this is probably going to be the lonliest time of my year. i'm sure everyone wants to hear me rant about valentines, but i'm going to keep this short. how short? valentines sucks! that short!

yea, i bought the ddr pads this weekend. they're soo nice. archie and i spent a good portion of the day and night yesterday (trying to) playing it. so i wasn't really feeling that bad yesterday but i did go to bed early. i woke up, and i couldn't move a muscle in my lower body. needless to say that i was very sore. the drive to work was hard, and the walk up to the 5th floor was even worse. i think i'll be taking it easy tonight work on homework and some video's that i'm helping people out on.

i'm determined to be good at this game (at least the not embarass myself on the arcade infront of millions of people good).

holy smokes! guess who bought dance dance revolution pads!!

today i guess is house cleaning day. its been nothing but cleaning up and stuff here in the macapinlac household. i can actually see the bottom area of my desk, and later on i will be vacuming once my parents fininsh with it upstairs. later on, its homework and my asp article. my reward tonight is dance dance revolution. maybe i'll check out the dance pads tonight, i can't believe that i'm really getting into this game. i'm really amazed at myself, i never thought that i'd get into that game since its a dollar to play at the arcades.

on a totally different note, i updated yesterday check it out. i've been this working machine lately.

yes folks, i just woke up. headache and all. I think that it was too hot in my room. or maybe its the fact that i went to sleep late again. the funny part was, last night was fun. i'm still amazed at my friend john. he was still walking, which was unreal. at the end of the night he was freestyling, laughing, tired looking but he was staggering and slurring. I'm not even going to say how much alcohol the boy consumed. i'll just say that it was enough to make my jaw drop in awe.

now, i have 3 people after me now.

i need to go see a doctor, or at least take something for my insomnia. I wasn't feeling soo well last night. Thinking that I had a long day today, with work and a birthday I decided to sleep early. So what happens? I woke up around 3:30 am, moved beds, then woke up again at 4:30 am, moved again and finally woke up at 6:00 am.

At least its sunny today, I would be in a really bad mood if it was.

all because of the weather change i'm starting to feel sick. it snowed today and i think that theres something wrong with my body because it doesn't work with weather changes that well. my body is hurting all over, but here i am working on some revisions on boogienet. I don't quite get why my body does this all the time. I'm starting to feel like i'm getting the flu, and no i didn't take the flu shot.

actually the night before i was coming home late and it was snowing a little bit. didn't stop all night, and all the way till this afternoon. i'm not a big snow person because i love to drive my car to work and in snow, it just makes everything a huge hassel. i'm cold and i'm pumping myself up with coffee in the morning.

note: john's dead because its his birthday!

I couldn't blog about anything. But I found my new saying.

I guess I just prefer to see the dark side of things. The glass is always half-empty. And cracked. And I just cut my lip on it. And chipped a tooth.

— Janeane Garofalo

and yes folks, don't credit me with that awsome logo that's on boogienet. That wasn't me, part of the concept (the lightbulb part, the headphones was mine) and all the graphic work was done by this really talented web artist. his name slips my mind though.... just kidding.... its Victor's handy work. good enough?

So what drama? I guess, I should explain huh? I've kinda disconnected myself from the real world lately and been working on a few things, like my sites (ok thats one site but trust me theres more). I've been online a lot, I've been talking to people. Especially from, SurvivorBlog2, they're an interesting bunch of people. Compared to them, I've very calm and composed. Actually, to them I probably am calm and composed. But I do have other friends online. One that I recently visited in Portland, well actually Vancouver, Washington.

So last night she shows me this and this. And truthfully, I'm flattered but (like you didn't know there was gonna be a but) there are soo many reasons why I don't have a special someone right now. (1) The fact that I'm still broken hearted and that I still do miss people (a lot). (2) I don't look at her in that way, it's more like a little sister type. But seriously, if I did something that would lead her to have those ideas, I didn't mean to. But right now I guess, I'm just trying to figure out my life and where I stand in this world.

and to her...don't worry the friendship is still the same, I'm sorry if you thought that I cut out on you last night. I was just working on BoogieNet.

holy smokes, what drama do i have in my life this week. lots of things to do and things to plan. i have this huge task list, and it doesn't seem to be getting any smaller. last night though, i finally got something done that i could actually see. i've decided to turn boogienet into somesort of web development company. hopefully, it just won't be the waste of space that its been. i'll be archiving all the things that i've been doing on to there for the whole world to see. a lot of work for what seems to be a simple redesign.

next up will be fixing up existing sites that i have that i've been neglecting and then upgrading databases to the back end of the other sites. something tells me that i'm not going to be sleeping anymore.

yes folks, yesterday i did the unthinkable. i chopped off my hair. i used to have shoulder-length hair. why? i don't really know... well, maybe i do. actually thats not the real reason, i had a bet going on with my friends that i could keep from cutting my hair until february. so guess what month this is?! thats why it has now been chopped off.

incidently, i also went to a yfc meeting, it was weird because i haven't gone for soo long. it was nice seeing people that i haven't seen in a while. of course, all of them was surprised with my haircut. i got put into a skit and got called "the ideal guy" (which i'm really flattered about) and i got called a hottie by another foine lady (i won't mention any names he he). and myla says i'm one of the foinest guys that she ever layed eyes on. so whats a guy to do? all i can say is that, all you guys made my day really! and if anyone of you guys want to make my day please do!

so here goes, i've been smuggling digital cameras across the border. but being the huge chicken that i am, i got nervous and when they asked me where i was from all i could mutter out was a few uumms and pointing my finger toward vancouver. its a good thing that we didn't get searched by the border people. i'm too scared, but bottomline, i got my new camera. i want to show everyone, but i can't really take a picture of it can i? i'll find a way though.

ick... back from my little smuggling trip. i have my new camera. you should've seen the smooth talk with the border officer. my weekend was interesting, but its not finished yet. so i'm not even close to telling the whole story... yet!

in 30 minutes i have to shut down my computer and wait for the movers to take our stuff to the 5th floor. pretty big move, i actually get a cubicle instead of the semi tall walls that we have right now. i won't be seen and i can't see anyone. i don't know if that will result me in being more productive. i know i'd be a little lonely not seeing people around me. i like staring out into the window too. now no window, its a prett big move.

i wish i had something profound to blog about. but in reality i've kinda already written my heart out last night. somehow i still manage to keep myself sane and alright. so don't worry about me, i'm alright. one thing to keep in mind when i wrote that journal entry. i've actually been working on that one since the one before it. i wrote it because it was how i was feeling at the time.

today is moving day at work. last day sharing a room with another department. its a bit sad, i've been in this room for about a year and i've grown fond of some people in the room. it's a sad day today.

today, cedric and i are heading down to portland. a few reasons behind our little trip but i won't get to it. but tonight if we make it in time for a radio broadcast tune in and listen, its an internet broadcast. i'm pretty excited to going down tonight. just a bit worried about the drive because we're both going to be really tired from work but hey, thats the fun in these little road trips. i'll be sure to take a lot of pictres and i'm going to try and blog a bit while i'm there if i can get hold of internet connection.

i just finished packing my desk because my department is moving floors. i (amazingly) fit all my stuff into a box. there was no problem with fitting it all in either. i had a lot of toys and a lot of paper. oh yea plus lets not forget the cd rack full of iis logs. the good part about this is that, i'm not the one carrying the actual boxes and computer to the 5th floor (from the second). movers are going to do it. i'm sure you guys' eyes are rolling at my laziness but i don't care. :P

on a totally different note. valentines is coming up and i don't have a valentine. it sucks to be alone on valentines. even minjung found a date, (with ernie).

i'm sleepy, i went to sleep earlier than my normal time last night. i woke up later than my normal waking up time but right now my eyes feel like they've been cemented to concrete blocks and they're about to get thrown off the brooklin bridge. i had those crazy mcdonalds breakfast wraps this morning. 2 wraps, a hash brown and orange juice. yes folks don't eat greasy food unless you want to be seen falling asleep with your forehead stuck to your monitor and snoring away.

yes folks, icemag is teaming up girlsareweird (and maybe teensters too). See the official release of icemag is the end of March. this is a really exciting project, but i have soo much stuff to learn and i guess the learning curve is just a bit steep for me but i can handle it.

i already have some people who want to move on and the zine hasn't even started. i guess its partly my fault, this isn't the only thing i'm doing ya'know but no excuses. i'll get my act together really.

blogger is one of the great web applications on the internet today. i don't want to see it go down. it seems that these web applications have been going downhill because of the big collapse in the internet economy. i use blogger religously, actually its a new holy experience from me. i've met a lot of friends through my blog and other peoples blog. i can't even say how much time i spend doing this whole blog thing (cause i'll probably get fired at work). i really feel for ev, and i want to do something about it but i wonder if i can.

in a way i know how he feels, the people i work with are great. theres a special type of friendship there. we talk outside of work, we hang out sometimes. at work, we love what we do and we do it with passion. having his great team leave is hard, everyone thought that they were the greatest team assembled. i agree and i still think that they were. it's sad, i wish there was something, someone out there that can help.